Playin’ Past Forty
When a man penetrates you he is not just penetrating your womb, he is also penetrating a vast psychological universe filled with hopes, dreams, fears and rage. This inner relationship universe was not designed for transient encounters with multiple partners. It was designed to revere the image and viewpoints of a single mate until death do you part.
This because with each new relationship moon—this marks the completion of a relationship cycle— memories of the relationship are stored. As the men in your life continue to come and go, you can wind up with a cauldron of conflicting images and viewpoints. Your inner relationship universe can become so bogged downed by these negative memories that it can literally shut itself off to the outside world as forces designed to help begin working against you.
This is when most women begin erecting walls: a psychological barrier designed to protect their Inner Sanctum from further marauding. The problem is that these walls block out everyone, even good guys. Over time, starving the mind of its primal need for male thought can be taxing, especially on self-esteem. If the levels get too low for too long, the subconscious you may begin sifting through your relationship memories, hoping to resurrect a past encounter—usually the most recent or most noteworthy—and compel you to get this person back into your life to boost your self-esteem. If you have ever broken up with someone, attempted to get out and meet new people but (1) found something wrong with everyone you met, and (2) were unable to get your ex off your mind, then this is an example of your wall preventing new encounters from entering your mind and your subconscious attempting to offset this dilemma by resurrecting an old flame. The problem is that the subconscious is only focused on the positive, and will overlook any negative aspects of these old relationships. If left unchecked, these recycled memories can lure some women back into dysfunctional relationships.
If your subconscious is unsuccessful at resurrecting an old flame, it may resort to weakening your wall. Since this is done on the subconscious level you will not be aware of it. But goons who take advantage of women for a living know this vulnerable look from a mile away. They are good at working their dark charm to trigger that vulnerable side of you even closer to the surface just long enough to get what they want, usually leaving you feeling even worse soon afterwards.
Bottom line: walls don’t work! Good guys run from them and bad guys know how to get around them. So if you’re looking to protect your mind, then you need protection that knows you, your relationship history and has the ability to reason. But protection alone is not enough. You must first free your mind of these old, outdated relationship memories and remove this wall so that fresh, positive memories can be given a chance to blossom. Fortunately, there is a psychological house inside your mind that can take care of all of this.
When most people think of a scorned woman they imagine a woman running through the streets picking fights and vandalizing property in a bitter rage. But a woman’s house of Scorn does not have to manifest in such a barbaric manner. If utilized properly, this monstrous house can bestow upon its host amazing energy, willpower, awareness and self-esteem. And if need be, it can unleash Avatars of sophisticated deception and wrath.
ENERGY
Even when its door is closed, your house of Scorn resonates energy that can conquer fear, fuel self-esteem, combat stress and rid your inner relationship universe of negative energy.
It is best to utilize this energy proactively, during the Spring of your relationship cycle. To get this energy working on your behalf all you need to do is establish a sense of entitlement. In other words, develop standards based on what you feel you deserve out of the relationship and what you will not accept and vow to stick to them.
By establishing a sense of entitlement you are allowing your house of Scorn to act as the gatekeeper to your inner relationship universe. Only those who respect the standards that you set will gain entry while those who do not will be deemed unworthy and denied access.
WILLPOWER, AWARENESS AND SELF-ESTEEM
Now that you have installed protection the next order of business is ridding your mind of the excess baggage. To accomplish this you must confront these dark memories where they dwell—inside your house of Fear—and reset it. Resetting your house of Fear means that you are changing the perception of your old relationship memories so that they lose their value, allowing you to control them rather than having them control you. One way to accomplish this is by doing a spectacular feat for the first time. Weather it is sky diving, running a half marathon or losing a considerable amount of weight, by standing up to a demon (a fear or perceived limitation), and defeating it, your willpower will rise up and sweep through your inner relationship universe causing other demons, such as the dark memories of past relationships, to lose their strength. You are now aware of your true mental strength. This willpower and awareness also produces self-esteem that is not dependent upon outside forces, which helps you maintain your sense of entitlement.
INVESTIGATION, DECEPTION AND WRATH: THE DARK AVATARS
When the door to your house of Scorn swings open and your avatars are unleashed there is no turning back. Bad things are about to happen. But by understanding who these dark women are and how they operate, you can still apply them to your relationship cycle in a positive way
You and your avatars share the same inner relationship universe. You control its conscious perception while they act as the guardians to its subconscious underworld. When negative energy invades, their duty is to swim to the surface and address the problem at its source.
Your house of Scorn is home to three primary avatars that are designed to do three things: Tulsa investigates suspected wrong doing; Hatshepsut punishes the accused while Scarab defends your honor and reputation. You do not have to call upon them. When a perceived wrong is being committed that is their specialty, they swim up to your consciousness on their own, and disappear just as surreptitiously.
Although each avatar is highly aware of your conscious activities, none of them are aware of you, or each other. When they take over your consciousness to confront the source of the negative energy they do not acquire any of your feelings for this person, keep any of your promises or vouch for any alleged acts of generosity. Their job is to identify and confront the source of the negative energy and then return to your subconscious underworld and flag his images and viewpoints as hostile.
Their strength is governed by the fear of the unknown and stress. The more you fear that you are being taken advantaged of without proof, the more stressed out you will get and the more powerful they will become.
Your avatars will show the same level of respect to your world that you bestow upon them in theirs. The only time they replace you on the surface to potentially wreak havoc that you will be left to deal with is when you allow negative forces to invade your Inner Sanctum and cause harm. I liken them to a fire sprinkler system. When they’re activated they can make a mess, but they don’t start the fires, they only put them out.
This is why it is so very important to be proactive during the Spring of your relationship cycle by preventing negative outside forces from gaining a foothold in your Inner Sanctum in the first place. This will help to keep stress down and lessen the chances of your avatars getting you sued or arrested. Good luck!
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Dogs may be loyal to their master but humans are not dogs. So ladies if ur man acts like a dog it is because ur not what he is looking for. Even the biggest cheaters will advance to loyality if they find a REAL woman willing to stick to her principles pending she has the qualities that make him realize he would not want to risk losing her. She will be the one that allows him to shed wild roots…she must also let her fear of the reputation he once had not get in the way of her
confidence. Because if it does…for one she is either
insecure or it is her protective field kicking in telling her he isnt the one. Ego will only secure the need to hold onto what fuels self esteem. What needs to be realized is that the operative word is SELF. That being said is only Ones individual SELF can be in charge of that esteem…One creates the respect they r given by others only through the respect One gives to themself. Dont allow blows of infidelity be that which 1)destroys ur right of esteem or 2) be that which puts walls of egoistic entrails of mistrust up so high u lose sight of something Good and Pure waiting on the other side.
Part of what causes women to put up those walls is the way we have been raised from the very beginning. As girls, we are taught that there is always going to be a ‘handsome prince’ or a ‘white knight’ coming to our rescue. But this is a fallacy in the fact that those are fairy tales and there’s a reason they are called that.
A smart woman does not always see the danger; she’s no better than a ‘dumb’ woman – in fact, it’s usually the ‘dumb’ ones who are wise enough to get out sooner rather than later. I should know, I’m not stupid but did stay married to a verbally abusive and extraordinarily adept cheater for many years.
Wouldn’t you know, I found myself being involved with yet another man, this time one of color, who would wrap me around his finger, tell me that I needed HIM and that I couldn’t make it without him. Even with my college education and my previous knowledge of being treated this way prior, I let it continue.
In this way, even smart women are dumb. I’ve been told the reason black men don’t often want to be with black women is because black women hold their own accountable. While this may be true, it seems to me that there’s an awful lot of scorn from women of color against white (caucasion) women when one of us dates one of ‘their’ men. It’s a preference, I’ve come to realize over the years… I’m a white woman who simply ADORES black men.
I’ve also come to know that men are men are men. If the propensity to cheat is within them, it doesn’t matter what shade their skin is on the outside. It’s an internal working that is messed up and badly.